This first time I saw indian country side… Some part from my first visit in India is still with me, most of my memories are feelings of joy. However, there were part of my visit which were major wake up calls, such as bing in the country side. In almost all the villages we passed by we could see the men under a tree or a roof and talk or lazy away an other day. To sit under a tree or a roof for the whole day, was something new for me. Everything during that year was new.
I wish I could travel back to India again to meet my friends and families. What I miss is the conection people have, the collective. That the family is a and o. While in Sweden we are very much into being indpended which is good. Everyone has to, at lest for a year stay alone to learn how to take care of yourself.
This desserts is from Klövsjö, the local restaurant with local cheese. Perfect for the cheese lover. I was really weak for cheese before, but now I can not eat a lot cheese. Now, I can not this much cheese and a half cheese maybe.
I have not been working for a months because I need to study for GMAT and law. My plan was to just to study and focus on GMAT. However, after a month without a job and only studies are not that fun. I miss my job, I think it was one of the best places I have worked at. We were really good team. Right now, I am not sure if I made right decission with work and studies. So many thoughts are in my head and questions without any answers yet.
Time to keep on study law and at 5-6 pm a bodybalance shift is badly requested from my body because of all the sitting my back is not my best friend right now.
I had such a dark hair before… The dark hair made my eye pop out more than my current hair color. The best part was, I had less than 30 hours between my flights from Canada to India. So, during my very few hours in Sweden, my dad helped me to color my hair dark at home. What a time we had!
Last night was horrible, I have not felt anything like this before.
From 10:30 pm to 4 am I was awake. Everytime i tried to fall alseep my mind started to processing about what I want to do and where. With that mind it is really hard to relax and fall asleep. Instead the mind made me stressed up and not at all tired.
At 3 am I thoguht I shoudl may be go to the gym, but I did not want to leave my bed… Instead I heard the news paper arrived and my hunger build up very fast. Till the end, my mind could not make me more stressed up even thou it tried I slept heavly after 4.
The alarm clock started 6 am and since than I have been up and feeling good. Not to tired but I am waiting for the bomb to come and hit me hard.
Last evening was really nice. I would love to meet them again and very soon.
I have three options and I do not know which one is the best one. So many things I have to think about and at the same time there is nothing to think about. If I try to plan too much in the end nothing is going to be how I hoped. So many things are changing.
Is it time to do what is easiet and do what is ecpected? I do not know, I am as lost as I was for 3,5 years ago when I needed to decied what I wanted to study at university. Now, I ahve to decide what I want to study AGAIN and WHERE!
Today has been kind of good day, I have been studying a lot. But I thought I would ahve been done with more pages till now… But, what to do, I do not have any options than keep on studying.
But, yesterday my aunt from Canada invited ud over to have dinner today at my grandparents house. This is the last time we will meet till next time we meet, but next time is such a unsure time frame. In basic form, we do not know the next time.
So, later today I have go and say good bye, I really hate this part of a visit to say good bye…
Last night I took a look on my time table to make sure I had class today morning. I read that from 8 am to 11 am there was a class. So, at 5:50 my clock rang, and I woked up fresh and made my lunch and ate my breakfast in the kitchen next to the sink (as always during the week). Packed my bags (one bag for law book and computer and the other one for my gym clothes and food). Than half way to the train I checked once again on the time table and saw we do not have any class today. Instead the time table showed only seminariums. Which mean I got ready and stressed all for nothing. Instead of travle to college I turn around and here I am at home in my gym clothes infront of my computer writing about law.
At 11 am I am going for Bodybalance class 🙂 So may be this day won’t be too bad either.